The Visual Mom

Today is the 12th anniversary of 9-11.  I will always remember the details of that day.  They are burned on my mind.  What I was doing.  Where I was.  Who I was with.  Who I wasn't with. Lucky for me, my schedule worked so that I had today off and home with my kids.  I stood in my kitchen this afternoon cleaning the sink, prepping for a meal and listening to BBC Newshour on NPR.  They had an interview with Jake Heggie, a composer who wrote a suite of music based on the lives of some of the people lost on 9-11.  One of the songs was words from a book that was being written by a woman who died on the plane in Shanksville, PA.  At the time of her death, she was pregnant with her first child.  For whatever reason, learning that she was pregnant made me completely break down and sob -- right there, as I was cleaning the sink.  Even as I write this, tears are streaming down my face.  I thought of my two beautiful children and...

Even before I was pregnant, people were telling me a number of things:  how fun kids are, how much I will love them, how much work they are, how expensive they are, etc.  And if you're like me, you just nodded and smiled and figured it would be kind of like loving a dog, who I couldn't possibly love any more than I already did. And then I had my first baby, a little girl named Eva. Suddenly, all the love I ever felt during my entire life wasn't enough to compare to the amount of love I felt for this tiny little person.  I didn't know it was going to be possible to love something as much as I loved my dog, let alone be in an entirely different realm of love.  It sounds ridiculous to say that now, but its true.  I don't think I love my dog any less, this is just a whole different and more complete kind of love.  Maybe its the kind of love my dog feels for me?  Who knows.  Its a really good thing though.  That I know, for sure. And then...

Well, it has been a while since I posted in this blog -- about a year and a half.  What have I done during that time?  Well...we've welcomed not one but TWO children.  Eva Rose is 16 months old and Jacob Henry is 17 days old. Today is my first day on my own with both kids.  So far, its going pretty well.  Although very active, Eva is a really good toddler.  And Jacob i s turning out to be a great baby too.  I'd forgotten how much newborns sleep.  Thankfully, there are still a couple times a day when every one is napping.  This provides some peace in the household. Those are the updates for now.  I will do my best to keep this blog updated a little better , although w ith 2 kids under two, that may be a challenge.